Friday, December 31, 2010

[ 2010 bye to u ]

2010年,最后一天。
人人都出去party了,我还呆在这里敲字。
刚才跟她吵了几句,真的,我很不想跟她讲话。
2010年,我做了些什么?
2010年,我拿了SPM成绩。
2010年,我上了college。
2010年,跟家人的关系也没有怎样好。
2010年,身旁多了几个牛鬼蛇神。
2010年,我拥有了一架DSLR。
2010年,另一个错的人,一段来得快去得快的感情,很快。
2010年,朋友依旧如此,得空出来吹吹水。
2010年,平凡中带点波折,不是一点是很多。
2010年,慢慢地加强我的忍耐力。
2010年,很混乱。
2010年,最后的一个post.
2010年,我向你说再见。



2010年,这年,我18岁。

Thursday, December 30, 2010

[ yes, shit me ]

我以120的车速回到家。
被骂了老半天,他们两个都在等我。
我人一踏进家门直接上楼,
她人在楼下继续骂,
他们担心我,我知道。
不喜欢,我不喜欢看到这样的画面。
别人18岁有他们的天地,我没有。
我憋闷气憋了几天,
原本以为前两天躲到乡下去可以好好地休息一下,恰恰相反。
我说过了,不可以跟几个老人家坐在一起听他们谈天,
很多事情,都是你不会想要听到的。
很沮丧,我真的很沮丧。

我很努力不提醒自己考试慢慢接近,
身边不停有娱乐邀约在引诱我。
你越是不提醒自己,别人就越是替你提醒自己。
说真的,今天的聚会本来就太多麻烦让我有不想去的念头。
要不是某人过来陪我驾车,
我想我在路上应该是一把鼻涕一把眼泪。
我不懂,我不懂我哪来的颈可以三八说笑,
我不懂笑容是勉强挤出来还是像机器一样自动笑出来,
但是无可否认,见到他们时开心的。
那个无关痛痒的人,
不好意思,我丝毫感觉也没有。

妈妈生病了,爸爸憔悴了,
很多时候,爸爸有事都不说出来。
看在眼里又如何?
我好难过。
我把难过憋在心里,憋得脾气暴躁。
朋友们,对不起。
有时候不是故意要发你们的脾气,
有时候不是故意要生闷气。

这个那个加考试,
真的,我不知道该如何去发泄。
视线模糊了,
今晚,让我放肆地浸湿我的枕头。

*

下次出夜街,
麻烦请想办法送我回家,
车油费我还你没关系。
有些事,
我永远最后一个知道,
有些事,
永远只有我一个人知道。
老人家,
你们要讲故事的时候,
可不可以不要让我听?
嘿,当排行最小的,很累。
你们嫁了出去什么都看不见,
我呢?

Monday, December 20, 2010

sunday :D
wake up early in the morning =.=
thousands time unwillingness.
went to one utama with sister.
she wants to look for the christmas decoration only =.= adoiii.
was hungry early in the morning,
when to BBQ plaza have a satisfied breakfast :D
i tell you,
my stomach is druming when i upload this pic :S







lai pei han,
nampak baken tak? *wave hand*xD




owh, the feel of Christmas surrounding one U is awesome :D
i suka:)










window shopping =.= sweat.
i cant imagine why am i dare to sampat with her at padini concept store that full of human being.
shit me.
i met a co-cu friend at there. sweat x3 =.=|||





arhh.. i saw this cute thingy too..
i feel pity of him/her..
macam mana dia nak jalan ni?
feel so easy to fall down wei~~


is 12.10am now.
i'm tired,
i'm sleepy.
but i don't feel like wants to sleep.
i afraid of nightmare.
2 days continuous.
i hate the story inside my dream.
FUCK MY DREAM.

[ weekend-saturday :) ]

oh well, i have uploaded these photo second time.
know wat?
i uploaded too many photo, it causes my blog lag =.=
so, i decided separate my saturday and sunday post.
i filled up my saturday and sunday dengan penuh.
seriously. really penuh.
why this things comes only when the final exam is around the corner?
FUCK MY LIFE.
but i enjoyed it too :D
lai pei han, dont curse me when u reading xD
i know that i'm “毛盾” :D


saturday,
meet the sampats,
still, there are missing one =.=
plan last minute go pyramid jalan jalan, cari makan.
walk in the camera shop,
what the flower,
LUBITEL :(
my love one~~
what to do? tengok saja lar..


i tell you, this key chain do make me crazy,=.
i want it for christmas present please @_@ *praying*
or maybe let me to win for a small prizes for my competition,
so that i can buy for myslef :D *dreaming*



jalan jalan, then the next?
cari makan lor..
>>the sampatss *look downward*









makan makan,
eh, really spicy i tell you.
but i can tahan,
but the most important is,
i shit untill my butt feel the spicy also =.=

*
second round,
went to eat snowflake at subang.
lai pei han, please recorgnize the road =.=
lazy take photo,
skip xD
owh, we meet someone there,
surprise =.=

*
third round,
we too free edi,
tukar kereta dueto sengek's car got problem.xD
went to another lomo shop.

i can tell you,
the one who open this shop,
must be a person who got a big hope.
big hope? 很有梦想la adoiii..
seriously, the shop is nice.
and NICE feel.





arhh, the old style LUBITEL. wo de tian..
cantik betul..






the sampatss,
yes, the stand on middle of the road,
i was standing at bus stop that time,
they ask me to shoot this,
and the whole bus stop's people looking at me.
so swt =.=||




alright,
i think i should stop here.
first time use netbook blogging with pictures.
susah betul.
first time use YES broadband,
upload picture cepat than strymeax =.=
is cepat giler.
strymeax, you should UPGRADE!


up next post,
sunday. tunggu patiently.
im tired now.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

[ shit feeling ]

放下你又如何?
那该死的阴影还在,
那讨厌的我以为。
心发寒,
夜噩梦。
原来你影响我那么深;(

Saturday, December 18, 2010

[ no, u dont influence me ]

那几个名字还是可以轻易扰乱我的思绪,
很讨厌。
什么时候他们才可以彻底地从我的世界消失?
你,再过分也罢,我已经没有感觉了。
就继续加盐加醋吧,
我不会阻止你发挥你的强项。
那个名字让我心痛了一下,
我不晓得为什么当初会喜欢上你,
然后搞得自己遍体鳞伤,
然后用了3年的时间去放下一切,
很好,
原来你还是让我很畏惧,
畏惧爱情的一切。
谢谢我自己,
可以放过我自己,
去放下你。

Monday, December 13, 2010

[ chritsmas? gathering? ]

December,
spend me a lot of money,
straighten hair, external hard disk, eat, doctor and bla bla bla~
now is just 13th of December,
i spent 200++
nice one =.=

*

ding dong bell~~
few more weeks going to Christmas.
should i put any hope on this day?
hmmm~~
owh well,
there is a Christmas tree at my home.. hoho :)
someone told me,
if there is a Christmas tree at your home,
every single year, you must add on those decorating stuff,
don't remain the same.
the more decorating stuff you hang,
the more luck you will get.
now only i know~
hmm..ye ke?




nehh, the tree is decorate by this sor poh xDD

*

owh ya,
besides of chritsmas,
new year eve too..
there is a gathering between me and my high school friend.
owh i miss them badly..
and i want go for the gathering badly too!
god bless me i could meet them that day *pray hard hard*

*

hey!
i found out a new thingy at my home's courtyard.
it stay some where in the courtyard.
probably hide will be suitable?
oh hey, its a small little frog,
it's my new model tooooo :D
i saw the frog many times edi,
but when i look near too it,
is quite geli xD


yeah, it just stand there and let me to shoot it. :P

Saturday, December 4, 2010

[ hey, the feeling is bad ]

我庆幸我今天没有去任何地方,

我现在整个人就是不在状况里面。

就因为那一句话。

这种复杂的心情,我很讨厌。

终于,他要放下他的事业。

那是被我无意中问出来的。

知道吗?熟悉我的人都应该知道我期待很久了。

但是,那句话从他口中出来,

我的第一感觉就是想哭。

不是感动,那感觉是强烈的担心,然后感慨。

他最后补上那句先不要让他们知道。

我整个人麻掉了。

我知道,他不知道该如何面对家里得女人。

一个人把事情憋着不能说,很辛苦。

要假装没事,很辛苦。

是的,我要离开从小长大的地方。

那个我看着小时候的玩伴,疼爱我的人慢慢一个一个走掉的地方。

那个我看着由一个很热闹的新村慢慢被印尼人侵占然后变成一条死村。

这里给我很多,童年时光几乎都是在这里。

小时候的开心,长大后的不开心,全部,在这里。

我犯贱,渴望离开这鬼地方很久,现在换来不舍得。