sick again

对,
又生病了..
干他娘的..
相信我,
要是你每一个月都会生病一次,
你也会骂出粗口来..
开始怀疑家里的风水对我不利,
之从搬进来以后,
很准时的,
那些病菌每个月一定会来报到一次..
我的天!
我快受不了了..
我讨厌生病,
讨厌病菌,
很讨厌,
你知道吗?
今晚没得出去countdown了..
天注定,
我也没办法..
再见了,
2009!

头痛欲裂中 =.="

折磨..

since i can't upload those photo,
so i just leave it..

自云顶过后,
继续颓废下去..
过得好像没了心没了肺..
过得很折磨..

看着钱包里的钱有进没出,
很折磨..
忘了是第几次生活过得那么紧逼却在月尾不再有粮出,
很折磨..
看着自己把紧急时候才能用的钱都动用了,
很折磨..
每天都在十五十六要不要去找工做,
很折磨..
每天望着一堆保险要做,
很折磨..
跟保险公司的工作人员讲电话,
很折磨..
很想不继续呆在店, 却没办法过自己那关,
很折磨..
看着爸爸工作得辛苦, 自己却懒惰和不想帮忙而感到内疚,
很折磨..
三不五时被问几时开学? 要读什么?
很折磨..
看着自己没有钱而不能顺利找学校在第一个学期上课,
很折磨..
别人离梦想越来越近, 我却越来越远,
很折磨..
看着自己因为种种原因, 对自己感兴趣, 想读的东西的那一团火慢慢小去,
很折磨..
每天都活在折磨当下,
然后每天很努力的告诉自己,
一切都会过去的..
每天都这样催眠自己..
Hooi ! 几时先醒啊? 醒咯喂!
面对现实啦!


我想我不应该庆幸我没有中NS..
即使我需要钱,
我还是不能顺利的出去找工作,
因为种种原因..
这个话题我说过不少次了吧?
你们应该也看得累了吧?
我记得那天在云顶,
我坐在跳楼机上,
我大声的喊 : 我们自由了!
现在我才发现,
原来我不毕业比毕业来得更自由..
然后更加的发现,
原来我毕业比不毕业来得更被约束..
并不是被谁约束,
而是周遭的环境使我有如此的约束感..
我也记得靠SPM的华语作文时,
我写了一篇"不要让生命留白" 的作文,
我希望我写的有一天是会成真的,
然而现在我却觉得,
那一篇作文很虚构,
很虚伪..
写得像在讽刺自己,
我当时应该是很严重的在发梦,
对吗?

我想,

吃榴连应该不会

比这些难过的生活还难,

对吧?

如果是这样,

我宁愿啃榴连..

what the hell?!

what the fuck?!

what you want?!

fuck?

a fuck?

how about you?

did i disturb you?

no right?

so what the hell you come and fuck here and fuck there har?

idiot!

i hate spammer!

merry christmas..

hey everyone,

merry christmas =)

back from genting yesterday,

is really cold *_*

upload photo soon..

short hair

two days din't sleep well,
my eye looks panda now =.="
stay at home and rotten at home today..
how boring is it?
argh...!

maybe..

i will like short hair? XD

want to hang out for shopping,

but my purse is bleeding now,

keep bleeding,

keep keep bleeding >.<

short hair><

hey peeps..
know what i do the 1st thing after SPM?
yea,
i short my hair..
i need alot of bravery for it..
give a big clap for me >.<
i still cant be used to it..
looks like aunty huh?
Lol.

before..

after..

what the second thing

i going to do after SPM?

boring day..

hey people..
is a boring day again..
phew..
actually is a plan for me tomorrow,
but...,
someone going to drag me to the stupid aquarium..
=.=" im not a small girl anymore lar wei..
so..?
i have to cancel the plan..
haiz..
hope so i can enjoy tomorrow..
Grrrr...@_@

going to say goodbye

to my long hair..

BYE :)

休息..? 妄想!

短短的两天,
好像过了两年一样..
早预料了,
离开学校的生活就是这样..
这几天,
不断被家人开炮,
很烦, 真的很烦..
她说 : 你就不能留在店里帮忙吗? 又不是没给你工钱, 还给你吃..你可以剩回很多你知道吗?
我说 : 可以剩几多?
她说 : 说白了, 你就是不想留在店而已..
我无言..

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他说 : 考完试了, 怎么还不去找工作? (这句话从他口中出来, 的确令我很震惊很震惊..)
我说 : 下个月先吧! 现在很难找的..(借口, 其实是我没想过他会那样说, 来不及反应说出口的..)
他说 : 你不找, 哪里知道没有? (更震惊的是, 他竟然赶我去找工..)

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她说 : 我告诉你, 你不要乱乱花钱..现在你没有读书了, 他不会给钱你用了..他最近也没能力给钱你用了..
我说 : 别烦我, 我自己会解决就是了..

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你说,
我该听谁的?
很烦对不对?
我还特地打电话去给姐诉苦,
我 : (事发经过)...
她 : 你不是见步走步咯..
我 : 不如这样咯, 我去帮你看孩子..(还没说完)
她 : 然后你要好像四姐那样, 要我一个月给两千块你是不是?
我 : 不是, 你包我吃住就好了.. 只要我不用呆在家..
她 : 这样好死?
我 : 怎样? 现在就是这样大只"gap na"随街跳, 你要不要?
她 : 那你不是来咯, 我"zap"到叻..

说真的, 要不是顾小孩是个很大的学问,
我发誓我今晚一定打包好行李搬过去了..

才考完试不久,

就不能让我好好的释放一下,

休息一下,

不行吗?

这样都不行吗?

personal time needed

i always cant resist you all,

just remember my name only when i needed,

am i right?

what the hell, har?

i need my personal time too!

id*ot..!

goodbye my lover - james blunt

Goodbye my lover- james blunt


found this song,
remembered before we leave the camp,
the DVD player is playing this song trough the speaker..
is really sad..
maybe change the situation not lover but friends?

class camp

hey people..
went to a camp with classmate on Thursday..
now,
showing some pic here =)

they done this,

-In MEMORY 5 Berani '09'-

they even bring speaker and DVD player there XD

yea, we stayed here for a night..

went to swimming pool after we checked in for some time..

it a little bit rain on that day,

quite hard to light up the fire =(

our BBQ night with the theme "seribu bintang malam"..

XD

-THE NEXT DAY-

headed to four season house.. winter time=)

is a nice trip actually,

do have fun together,

last time?

i guess..

how sad? =(

i do miss them..always=)

lastly,

we still is 5 Berani,

even though we graduated..

right?

yea..

dying

i don't really enjoying now..
repeat the same thing everyday that i doesn't enjoy..
I'm waiting December going the end..
waiting for 2010 year..
sometimes just want to ask,
is there anybody know me well?
what i want?
what i need?
what I'm thinking?

our life need abit fun sometimes..

i know,

i don't look like a SPM student :)

still the same,

i believe,

i can fly-

from them..

missss..

stay alone at home,
i really hate that feeling when I'm alone..
busy for whole day,
but don't know what I'm busy for..
cause all the stuff that I'm doing is not mine..
stay at home alone..but not doing my stuff..
because of that,
i have lost the last chance to out study at old town white coffee..
is really disappointed and regretfully..
well, i do miss it..
miss the waiter,
miss the place that we sit always,
miss the moment when i waiting for the bus although i don't really enjoy the wait,
miss the nice bus driver,
miss everything..
that only two more subject to go..
wonder why I'm using "only" this word?
yea,
I'm happy the exam is going the end,
but it represent my school life and i being as a student is going the end too..
how sad is it?
and,
what the next after my school life?

well,

i miss to be a student,

but not the place that i had being

as a student for 5 years..

i cannot bear to think of the past =(

arts!

hey..

three more subject to go!

Friday's art are killing me!

wonder what will happen on my drawing paper on that day..

@_@