Thursday, January 31, 2013

【you know now is still working hour.】

其实我发现我在让自己去习惯别人的习惯
该有自己的个性却没有了
出来社会让人类的改变有好有不好
我喜欢与那群人类在一起
但是我不懂名牌   所以我插不进
但是我们没有时常见面   所以每次见的时候我不太懂你们在讲什么
然后每次出来的时候变成了我在catch up你们最近在做什么在聊什么
然后只有我自己一个人调节脚步地去适应你们
我会羡慕你们一起吃的饭
我会羡慕你们一起喝的茶
我会羡慕你们的感情有增无减
然后羡慕过后变成了难过
难过你们里面没有我
谢谢偶尔出来还记得有我的你还是你们
有过就够了

前几天还在安慰别人
现在那些安慰别人的话我安慰不了自己
悲哀





会走散的话终究还是会走散
你那句“我觉得我们之间有了gap”
其实我懂,我知道,甚至是难过
不曾忘记很多疼爱我的你们
但是该放手的话就放
不是爱情,友情亦是如此
我努力得好累

Friday, January 25, 2013

【wo hen emo.】

他走了,就剩我一个人守候这里
weekend的假日就剩我一个人没有意思地在家
我晚上无聊时候走过去隔壁房间就会变成空荡荡的房间
我晚上晚了回来门不小心被锁了就再也没有人偷偷替我开门
偶尔想出去的时候再也没有人陪我
再也没有人跟我吵嘴
没有人会在我要生病得时候叫我喝这个茶喝那个柠檬水
没有人会在我睡觉的时候拿patrick吵醒我
没有人和我在这个家可以有共同的坏话讲
没有人听我讲无聊的话
没有笑点很低的人听了我自己也不觉得好笑的话在那边狂笑









他瞒着他们要走
然后为什么不连我也一起瞒了
我很emo


Monday, January 21, 2013

【stomach pain :O】

you know what?
i really hate you being like this, you make me choose to go left or right.
tell me what you can get after you wait for so long? time passes with nothing? hurt feelings each of every time  we face?
i really have no idea.






let it go.
we are growing.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

【late hi to 2013.】

oh hi bloggie, i put you dead for so long. am so sorry.
the very first post on 2013. feel like blogging in so sudden, or maybe i got something to talk to?
hey, no longer put the first post on the first day of the year.
you know, once you getting older, something will change.
like bloggie, it still the nice place to speak out, but not everything, i mean feelings, it might helps but not all.
i wish this is a good year for me in the first day, but so upset, i bleed on the first day as i remember, like told me my unlucky-ness is not ended yet. oh well, i will conquer it and i will overcome it too. be strong and steady okayyyyyyyy!

countdown 2013 with the long relationship friends. but yet, it is still not complete. well, giving the best wishes to each others is more than enough, as long as we all are doing well.
i still love them, but you know, we are growing, we are getting to step into the society, things might turn slowly after we involve in the society, i dont know how long we can been through, but i will try my best to hold it tight.

a gang of warm heard college-mates. am lucky to having them. but you know, less contact makes our gap are getting bigger, this is make me sad. what to do? i can do nothing, we are staying too far away. driving license is not a way to settle this problem, family................oh well, i dont want to talk about this shit anymore.  joining them for every outing will made my day and make me happy, but you know, not every outing i could join. but i will appreciate each and everytime we gathered together :)
friends are all getting in a pair, am happy for them. and i hope they are in blessed. people ask me do i jealous? no, why do i need to jealous. i'm that kind of people as long the friend who surrounding me are happy then i will be happy too. so, let me feel your happiness :D

i feel like crying in sudden, no why.
being a girl is seriously wtf.
why mood swing so easily.





new year wishes to get a good and me likey permanent job.
and ofcourse that everything can go smooth. 
but sending resume and interview makes me got a little bit phobia.
this is so wtf.
so what?
i still have to do it and life still goes on.
i got to end my personal holiday for soon.
i hope.







she asked me why,
and i said i need freedom.
yes, i'm the kind of person need freedom so much
and i know, sorry is nothing.
so let it be.