【dont be a foolish again.】

当你处身在一个不知所措的位置时候
就不停地催眠自己吧
当你没办法把自己想写的东西写出来的时候
就自言自语吧

结果的是

不习惯的不是你

而是我自己

我想撞墙

【talks.】

“啊那我叻？”
      “你心里很多个门。”

“你要学会拒绝。”

“你是个傻海。”

我是个傻海。

【:))】

thanks for being with me within these year,

as you all know, 

im weak in expressing myself.

those happy day heart talk day or whatever day,

keep it in memory.

thanks for involving in part of my life :)

those eight pors that growing up with me like family,

sometimes,

without birthday cake and birthday song are just nice,

although we could not being like the old days that we having in high school,

gather like this are just right enough for me,

thanks that all of you are here,

thanks for accompany me for so long days.

no one could replace them :) 

alright,

i got to admit im 20.

but not the Lao aunty as the 8 por mentioned.

im still young okayy :D

【secret recipe+rainy emo day】

今天是老豆的生日,
亲爱的,
生日快乐:)
人坐在secret recipe
凭着一架android电话在这里打blog
 感谢科技的发达
是什么毅力让我可以在这么小的荧幕飞键盘?我不懂.
应该可以看得出我压抑太久需要的那个文字抒发
姨妈提早很多到让我很不爽
心里压抑太久的东西我无法抒发随着熬夜工作死撑烂撑让我两个月里病了好几次
好几次眼泪滚到眼睛让我自然且熟悉的习惯收了回去真有点他鸟的累
我以为把时间填满
我以为把自己弄得很累
我以为可以累得一觉睡天亮的时候起床后就可以感觉很好
原来不是
原来你想逃避的在梦里依然会出现
原来在你病得无力起床的时候才发现自己是他妈的如此脆弱
原来,
我总是在自欺欺人
原来我一点都比不上thor.
过去的那段日子被触碰是多么的不好受
才发现自己原来一直活在过去没有走过出来
那个魔力强大到我招架不来
感叹这些年来我是怎么走过来
我怪自己
我怪自己为舍总是让那恐惧陪我长大
剥夺我的快乐
剥夺我的欢笑
就像一股权利控制着我 

那个相逢恨晚的感觉很可悲
也许我过分保护自己让你觉得很难捉摸
再也没有那样的力气
也不想让从前的情况重现
所以就这样
来得很安静
走得很安静
至少回忆起来的事情我嘴角是上扬的
也许是过客
也许是朋友
命运知道

 Secret recipe的蛋糕其实很甜很甜
应该看得出我多么需要这份甜来麻痹自己的舌头
甜食不适合我

silence is good enough.

【the last of july.】

the one who really care,
they would know here.
don't need to mentioned,
don't need to say,
in purposely.

【twitter become public.】

sorry my dear heart,
u are keeping too much of things.
u are over loading,
i couldn't help u too do anything besides of adding pressure.
im so sorry.

【still, when words couldn't express anymore.】

你看看吧
看看我自己吧
什么时候变得那么少上来这里
就只有我自己的这里
when stress and lost comes together.
i don't know what to do :/
when words couldn't express anymore.
when the remaining time is getting less and lesser.
i hate this,
i hate this kind of feelings.
lack of sleep is okay.
lack of time is not okay :(

如果你发现到我的指南针失灵了。