[movie~]

hey,

i watched this movie!

another movie laugh of my ass! XD

should watch it again =)

going to change a

new skin for my

lovely bloggie~

[心情]

生活继续的颓废下去..

谁来把我从地狱拉上来啊?~

看着钱包里的钱慢慢变少,
就觉得越来越无奈..
每天在等电话做工..
等等等..
老板们啊?
你们到底请不请的啊?
你们就只会叫人等的吗?
我现在是名副其实的打散工仔~
有工就做龙,
没工就做虫..
真的发现,
踏入社会这条必经之路,
实在让我有点抓狂..
赚钱难,
要找工难,
要找到好的老板更加难..


最近都围绕在槟城划龙舟翻船的新闻,
再次让我感到生命无常,
这个新闻也赚了我不少热泪..
今天刚好和朋友聊开了这个话题..
我发现,
我害怕死..
我并不是怕死亡,
我只是害怕有一天,
突然发生什么事,
就这样走掉了..
我还有很多事还没做啊~
如果我知道自己剩下24小时的生命,
我会说,
我想当一个小时的专业摄影师..
我想告诉朋友们,
可以当你们的朋友是我的福气,
虽然我朋友不多..
如果有的话,
我会告诉那个他,
我有多爱他..
很多很多事..
我都想做..
然而,
我并不知道,
那天会是什么时候..
不想不想不想~

我想拥有自己的相机,

把它当成挚爱,

带着它畅游我去过的没一个地方,

拍下我留下过的每一个足迹..

我好想去旅行~

[vampire?]

i din't sleep well almost one week..
i dream everyday,
it's quite tired,
it's use up all my energy and length of one's sleep..
but what can do?
i can't control it right?
the 2nd time,
i dream about vampire..
the 1st time i dream about vampire is an old jumping vampire..
yea, like those movie we watch always..
the vampire want to catch up me..
and ofcourse, i ran away..
i don't really remember how is the story,
and i don't remember the ending too..
the 2nd time i dream about the vampire,
this time is different..
it's a modern vampire,
like those vampire in the movie twillight..
but this time there is someone came inside my dream..
i meet him before,
we talk before also..
we don't really know each other,
i wonder why is he in my dream..
and yea,
he is the person who protect me in the dream..
i din't dream out the ending,
but i hope so..
can i continue dream?
LOl..
is freak..
is weird..
vampire?

[dolphins & sea lions show =) ]

hey.

guess what?

hehehe..

i went watched the dolphins & sea lions show yesterday =)

thanks for my sis's bf belanja yea XD

we thought that the time for the last show is 9.30pm,

when we on the way to the parking lot,

we realize that the time for the last show is 8.30pm..

=.="

we reach there 8.15pm..

rush there to buy ticket,

nvm,

as long we get to watched the show..

hehe =)

sis & me..

me, sis's bf , trainer, sis & dolphin XD

this photo cost us RM15,

although is a little bit expensive,

but,

who cares?

when on the way home,

my sis said:

they got their freedom in the sea actually,

but now they have to do the show everyday..

her words make me sad..

just watched only lar,

cakap banyak buat ape lar?

[ 钱....]

我快缺钱缺到发疯,

我试过缺钱,

没试过像现在这样,

缺到发疯了..

钱都给去看医生了,

去死啦...!

[random..]

话说..
我爸店隔壁的后面最近搬来了一家人,
一个啊公,
一个啊嬷,
还有他们的外孙..
他是个小弟弟,
肥肥的,
很可爱..
现在的小孩子有够幸福的咯,
他今年四年级,
你们知道吗?
从他现在住的地方到学校来回不到1km,
走路也不用5分钟就到,
知道为什么我要这样强调吗?
因为他竟然来回学校都要给人载,
多少钱?
一个月80块..
=.="
好命到到到到到...!
我很想跑去问那个啊公:"我帮你载好不好?"
80块给我赚啦..
我爸问过那啊公,
为什么不走路回?
很近而已吗..
你懂啊公说什么吗?
他说他还不够成熟..
我的天!
四年级了耶..
我能当他们的孙真是幸福死咯..

最近都没有睡好,

只要一睡下去,

就会一直发梦,

没有停过..

我的黑眼圈就快越来越深啦..

朋友们,

你们都跑进我的梦来了,

是不是我太想念你们了,

还有昨晚,

我发了一个恶梦,

恶到我现在还记得..

我很想好好睡一觉><

[boring week]

OK..

my blog is dead for one week..

went to pahang last week,

have fun there..

i snap many picture there,

but i can't upload here..

know what?

i lose my weight..

i lose 3kg!

since the SPM started and the sick for this two month..

really worst,

i want be a fatty! ='(

and yea,

I'm broke,

i got no money right now..

it really killing me..

argh!!

anyway,

i bring my cousin back along after went to pahang,

we went to pyramid,

to get my salary,

and go for a shop..

hey L.S.Ling,

we should have a date one day =)

and sorry for that day.. =(

we went for this movie,

OLD DOGS..

laugh off my ass XD

should go and watch it..

and whole of last week,

i was really boring except the pahang trip,

my family keep asking what i want to study..

argh!

annoying lar..

cant u all hear me?

i got no money!

even i want to study..

some of them ask me study for account,

some of them ask me study for hair stylist,

now even worst,

wedding planner =.="

i want study photo shooting larrr..

money, i need moneyyy!

i want a DSLR camera..

i crazy for it,

i want it so madly =(

i miss my high school life,

i miss the friend,

miss the teacher,

but not the school..

miss them..

I'm free,
for this few day..
know what i had do today?
i had resign for the damn part time job..
you treat me like that,
so i wont treat you kindly..
so, i better don't work there..
as my sis said : you "chao your boss yao yu ar?"
and she laugh all the way..
sigh =.="
don't know what she laugh for..
arghhh!!
i need a job so badly..
i need money so badly..
thx for those who help me search for a job..
I'm giving my effort here to searching for a right job too ^^
another things,
one of them who went to NS yesterday was sms me just now,
yea, she cried..
she missed her family,
but she don't dare to call her family,
hmm..
i be sad to hear that..
but i hope that i be inside 1 of the camp too..
my life is really annoying..
search the job here and there,
ask for job here and there,
just like a mad girl..
hey girls,
i miss u all so badly,
do enjoy your NS,
trust me,
nothing is better than where you be and what you do now..
i know u all will be stronger,
me too ^^
i will pay my great effort here...

hey girls!

we strong together!

工作碰钉..

我..
我很想撞墙..
这一篇东西是故意等朋友去NS后才post的..
不想写的东西会影响到他们的心情..
今天碰钉了,
碰到很够力..
我做工那边的人-叫他xx好了..
xx说要我转做part time..
是老板的意思..
原因是?
我不够经验..
很好的一句不够经验..
我问过自己,
是不是自己拿来的?
答案只出现了他们在我脑海里..
一句不够经验,
我被打入了地狱..
我很努力的学习,
结果,
一句不够经验大完..
现在,
我只能做拜六礼拜..
薪水大大减少..
我的学费又出现问题了..
说我不失落是假的,
说我不难过是假的,
说我不在意也是骗你的
说我没关系也是假的..
我知道我没经验,
可是凡事都会有第一次不是吗?
我知道对于我这年龄出来做这些工是迟了点..
但至少,
我肯学..
你们不给机会我,
没关系..
我会记得的..
一句不够经验,
的确很容易被社会当垃圾丢掉..
我就是那袋垃圾..

第一次,

一个人,

躲在公共厕所的坐厕上痛哭,

那种感觉真的不好受..

钱,

你知道有多爱你?

又知道我有多恨你吗?

work..

ok..
先让我深呼吸一口气..
本来这篇东西应该是要在昨天写的,
因为工作回来有点累了,
我抢不到电脑用,
所以罢休了..
恩,
我开始工作了..
情况没有我想象中好,
也没有我想象中坏..
怎么说?
我工作对象是一个男的..
他要我说多一点话,
嫌我太静了 =.="
我应该说,
我和男生的沟通有很大的问题..
基于家里90%是女人,
朋友80%也是女的,
也很多年没谈恋爱了,
再加上某种原因,
我会排斥男性,
所以我跟雄性动物会有点沟通不良 =.="
*我不是同性恋的ok?*
为什么要酱说叻?
是因为我工作是卖男性服装的 @_@
因为我们都是靠commission吃饭的,
所以他要我努力一点说话,
hard sell 多一点..
别误会,
他并没有骂我,
还很耐心教我..
知道了知道了,
我会很努力就是了..
给点时间我ok?
哎哟,
慢慢捱吧!

ok,
下面的时间是给两位即将要去当兵的人..
基于工作不能去送他们,
所以现在赔罪啦~
不过我想另外一位应该没什么机会看到了..
管他的,
写了才算..

一 `东西都带齐了吗?
二 `有没有忘了什么重要的随身物品?
三 `要注意安全知道吗?
四 `要照顾自己知道吗?
五 `去到不要"溜"男子知道吗? (云顶的小丑 + XX的爸爸说) 明白吗? XD
六 `祝你们一路顺风..
七 `恩, 脑袋空了, 想不到要说什么了
最后 `我会想你们..也要想我哦!
最最后 `我会等你们回来..
最最最后 `我的手机24小时开着, 有什么不顺心的事, 随时call我啦..不call至少也来个信息啦..

~一路顺风啦

♥

sick again

对,
又生病了..
干他娘的..
相信我,
要是你每一个月都会生病一次,
你也会骂出粗口来..
开始怀疑家里的风水对我不利,
之从搬进来以后,
很准时的,
那些病菌每个月一定会来报到一次..
我的天!
我快受不了了..
我讨厌生病,
讨厌病菌,
很讨厌,
你知道吗?
今晚没得出去countdown了..
天注定,
我也没办法..
再见了,
2009!

头痛欲裂中 =.="

折磨..

since i can't upload those photo,
so i just leave it..

自云顶过后,
继续颓废下去..
过得好像没了心没了肺..
过得很折磨..

看着钱包里的钱有进没出,
很折磨..
忘了是第几次生活过得那么紧逼却在月尾不再有粮出,
很折磨..
看着自己把紧急时候才能用的钱都动用了,
很折磨..
每天都在十五十六要不要去找工做,
很折磨..
每天望着一堆保险要做,
很折磨..
跟保险公司的工作人员讲电话,
很折磨..
很想不继续呆在店, 却没办法过自己那关,
很折磨..
看着爸爸工作得辛苦, 自己却懒惰和不想帮忙而感到内疚,
很折磨..
三不五时被问几时开学? 要读什么?
很折磨..
看着自己没有钱而不能顺利找学校在第一个学期上课,
很折磨..
别人离梦想越来越近, 我却越来越远,
很折磨..
看着自己因为种种原因, 对自己感兴趣, 想读的东西的那一团火慢慢小去,
很折磨..
每天都活在折磨当下,
然后每天很努力的告诉自己,
一切都会过去的..
每天都这样催眠自己..
Hooi ! 几时先醒啊? 醒咯喂!
面对现实啦!


我想我不应该庆幸我没有中NS..
即使我需要钱,
我还是不能顺利的出去找工作,
因为种种原因..
这个话题我说过不少次了吧?
你们应该也看得累了吧?
我记得那天在云顶,
我坐在跳楼机上,
我大声的喊 : 我们自由了!
现在我才发现,
原来我不毕业比毕业来得更自由..
然后更加的发现,
原来我毕业比不毕业来得更被约束..
并不是被谁约束,
而是周遭的环境使我有如此的约束感..
我也记得靠SPM的华语作文时,
我写了一篇"不要让生命留白" 的作文,
我希望我写的有一天是会成真的,
然而现在我却觉得,
那一篇作文很虚构,
很虚伪..
写得像在讽刺自己,
我当时应该是很严重的在发梦,
对吗?

我想,

吃榴连应该不会

比这些难过的生活还难,

对吧?

如果是这样,

我宁愿啃榴连..

what the hell?!

what the fuck?!

what you want?!

fuck?

a fuck?

how about you?

did i disturb you?

no right?

so what the hell you come and fuck here and fuck there har?

idiot!

i hate spammer!

merry christmas..

hey everyone,

merry christmas =)

back from genting yesterday,

is really cold *_*

upload photo soon..

short hair

two days din't sleep well,
my eye looks panda now =.="
stay at home and rotten at home today..
how boring is it?
argh...!

maybe..

i will like short hair? XD

want to hang out for shopping,

but my purse is bleeding now,

keep bleeding,

keep keep bleeding >.<

short hair><

hey peeps..
know what i do the 1st thing after SPM?
yea,
i short my hair..
i need alot of bravery for it..
give a big clap for me >.<
i still cant be used to it..
looks like aunty huh?
Lol.

before..

after..

what the second thing

i going to do after SPM?

boring day..

hey people..
is a boring day again..
phew..
actually is a plan for me tomorrow,
but...,
someone going to drag me to the stupid aquarium..
=.=" im not a small girl anymore lar wei..
so..?
i have to cancel the plan..
haiz..
hope so i can enjoy tomorrow..
Grrrr...@_@

going to say goodbye

to my long hair..

BYE :)

休息..? 妄想!

短短的两天,
好像过了两年一样..
早预料了,
离开学校的生活就是这样..
这几天,
不断被家人开炮,
很烦, 真的很烦..
她说 : 你就不能留在店里帮忙吗? 又不是没给你工钱, 还给你吃..你可以剩回很多你知道吗?
我说 : 可以剩几多?
她说 : 说白了, 你就是不想留在店而已..
我无言..

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他说 : 考完试了, 怎么还不去找工作? (这句话从他口中出来, 的确令我很震惊很震惊..)
我说 : 下个月先吧! 现在很难找的..(借口, 其实是我没想过他会那样说, 来不及反应说出口的..)
他说 : 你不找, 哪里知道没有? (更震惊的是, 他竟然赶我去找工..)

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她说 : 我告诉你, 你不要乱乱花钱..现在你没有读书了, 他不会给钱你用了..他最近也没能力给钱你用了..
我说 : 别烦我, 我自己会解决就是了..

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你说,
我该听谁的?
很烦对不对?
我还特地打电话去给姐诉苦,
我 : (事发经过)...
她 : 你不是见步走步咯..
我 : 不如这样咯, 我去帮你看孩子..(还没说完)
她 : 然后你要好像四姐那样, 要我一个月给两千块你是不是?
我 : 不是, 你包我吃住就好了.. 只要我不用呆在家..
她 : 这样好死?
我 : 怎样? 现在就是这样大只"gap na"随街跳, 你要不要?
她 : 那你不是来咯, 我"zap"到叻..

说真的, 要不是顾小孩是个很大的学问,
我发誓我今晚一定打包好行李搬过去了..

才考完试不久,

就不能让我好好的释放一下,

休息一下,

不行吗?

这样都不行吗?

personal time needed

i always cant resist you all,

just remember my name only when i needed,

am i right?

what the hell, har?

i need my personal time too!

id*ot..!

goodbye my lover - james blunt

Goodbye my lover- james blunt


found this song,
remembered before we leave the camp,
the DVD player is playing this song trough the speaker..
is really sad..
maybe change the situation not lover but friends?

class camp

hey people..
went to a camp with classmate on Thursday..
now,
showing some pic here =)

they done this,

-In MEMORY 5 Berani '09'-

they even bring speaker and DVD player there XD

yea, we stayed here for a night..

went to swimming pool after we checked in for some time..

it a little bit rain on that day,

quite hard to light up the fire =(

our BBQ night with the theme "seribu bintang malam"..

XD

-THE NEXT DAY-

headed to four season house.. winter time=)

is a nice trip actually,

do have fun together,

last time?

i guess..

how sad? =(

i do miss them..always=)

lastly,

we still is 5 Berani,

even though we graduated..

right?

yea..

dying

i don't really enjoying now..
repeat the same thing everyday that i doesn't enjoy..
I'm waiting December going the end..
waiting for 2010 year..
sometimes just want to ask,
is there anybody know me well?
what i want?
what i need?
what I'm thinking?

our life need abit fun sometimes..

i know,

i don't look like a SPM student :)

still the same,

i believe,

i can fly-

from them..

missss..

stay alone at home,
i really hate that feeling when I'm alone..
busy for whole day,
but don't know what I'm busy for..
cause all the stuff that I'm doing is not mine..
stay at home alone..but not doing my stuff..
because of that,
i have lost the last chance to out study at old town white coffee..
is really disappointed and regretfully..
well, i do miss it..
miss the waiter,
miss the place that we sit always,
miss the moment when i waiting for the bus although i don't really enjoy the wait,
miss the nice bus driver,
miss everything..
that only two more subject to go..
wonder why I'm using "only" this word?
yea,
I'm happy the exam is going the end,
but it represent my school life and i being as a student is going the end too..
how sad is it?
and,
what the next after my school life?

well,

i miss to be a student,

but not the place that i had being

as a student for 5 years..

i cannot bear to think of the past =(

arts!

hey..

three more subject to go!

Friday's art are killing me!

wonder what will happen on my drawing paper on that day..

@_@